Friday, December 22, 2006

Winter Solstice

Today is Winter Solstice or in chinese "khor tung", and I just cannot help myself, those memories keep on flashing. While we were together, this 3 years we never fail to go back to her mom's place for dinner but this year will be different.

And Christmas is approaching, I could not help myself to think of how we celebrated our past Christmas together. Those X'mas experience in Singapore still vividly flashing on & off my mind.

Well... I am just human, human with feelings. No matter how I want to be strong, there is a part in me which is still weak. Her face, her look, her expression, her likings and dislikes, her voice, all this just something that at the moment conquering my mind.

Anyway, happy Winter Solstice to all my fellow bloggers and readers. Appreciate while you can.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Those Were The Days, Love You Always

I replaced the embedded video posted earlier to a link. Please click the word "Love of My Life" to view the video. The video is specially made for my ex-girlfriend. She is my love, my best friend and my best companion.

Let's cherished the best moments we had and look forward, if you belong to me, fate will bring us back together one day, who knows?

Bird Without Wings

Exactly a week into my breakup, sometimes we just tend to be ignorant. At times when we heard that someone breakup and how bad it was, you never really know it until you experience it for yourself. To let go and forget about a relationship of 3 years, it is easy to be said than done. Friends around me giving consolation and never ending SMSes to wish me best of luck, glad about it and many thanks.

It is even heart breaking to know that whatever I do now does not bring any meaning anymore, no matter how hard I tried, it will not change the fact, well... I just need to let time heal this wounded bird that cannot fly at the moment without its wings.

How I wish now I can tell her how much I love her, how I wish she never suspect my 101% commitment to love her and care for her. Perhaps I am just not the kind of guy who knows how to love a girl or it is just plain poor luck in love?

Sigh... there is so much in me now that I want to tell her but conditions do not permit me to. My mind telling me to be strong but I am just a very weak soul. How I wish I just can have this final relationship without having to start a new one again.

In this aftermath of breaking up, alot of people I have to sincerely apologise. My mom... Mom, sorry for not making Emmery my soulmate, I am deeply saddened with this as well, hope you understand. Another person I would like to say sorry is to Emm's family, auntie, I am sorry for not being able to take care of your daughter, my apology in any event I have mistreated her and I am glad this 3 years you had been half a mom to me. And finally to all my friends who looked up on me to get married with the girl I love, sorry for letting you guys down.

God please give me the courage to be strong and accept this very fact.


Guys, although I had broke up with Emmery, I thought whether should I end this blog or not as most of the postings were of those happy and memorable moments I had had with her, at this very moment, I just felt that I only got this blog to let off my feelings and whatever I can say here, I felt will be my best companion throughout this tough period I am going through.

So guys, mikemmery is going to stay definitely, after all she is the girl I love most in my entire life at least for now.


Saturday, December 16, 2006


Hey guys, I just do not know how to break the news to you guys. Me & Emmery just decided to give ourselves a break based on mutual understanding.

Sad, yes but if it is mutual and for good, I will need to learn to let go.


Sunday, December 10, 2006

Malaysian Govt ~ Tell Us The Truth

It had been a while since my last post. Just could not have the inspiration to write but the news involving the price hike in tolls next year trigger my temper to write and condemn something which I am totally disgusted about...

As a Malaysian, I just feel that my freedom of speech, my right to speak up had been limited. With the ISA regulations and with Pak Lah issued a stern warning to bloggers not to write anything that will create unrest among Malaysians, I just could not be bother anymore as I need a platform to express myself here.

The news broke for next year; most of the highways here in Klang Valley will increase their toll rates. This year alone had not been a good year for us Malaysians, as petrol price increase to RM1.92/litre, price increase on Electricity and lately Water bill as well. And upon hearing that the price of LDP toll will be increased from RM1 to whopping RM 2.10 , I was like WTF to this increase. A f**king 110% increase.

My government, can you imagine how much we got to spend on toll rates for those who stay in Kepong & Puchong to travel to PJ for work? Secondly, all the taxes you imposed to us, what had you done with the money? And highway was meant to ease traffic congestion, then what the F**K for us to pay money along LDP stretch and yet have to face the lousy jam everyday? What had you done to clear the bottleneck? For the dollar and cent we paid to you daily, please show us the benefit and reason behind it, for god sake.

I am sick with all the news of family members in politics and ex-PM vs current PM issues. Please work something out for us citizens instead. And allow us to voice ourselves since it is a free country, we need a more transparent government, a government who can stretch our every dollar and cent in a wise way.

Oh ya, in between crude oil prices drop, any chance you rebate it back to us? I guess no right? DAMN!!!