Saturday, February 28, 2009

Updates From Dataran Pahlawan, Melaka

Yes, I am a Malacca boy, had my primary & secondary education here before I further my studies in Rahman College, Kuala Lumpur.

Looking back, how Malacca had changed. Since my parents are residing in Malacca, I make it a point to come back as often as I can to be with them. This weekend is my second trip back this month and it's always a pleasure to stay away from the hustle & bustle of city life to rejuvenate myself in my hometown.

Woke up at half past 9 this morning, mom prepared home-cooked food. I then sent my car for major repair (burning my pocket again) before following my younger brother & his wife to Dataran Pahlawan (the latest mall in Melaka). While they went off for movie, I decided to stuck my fat ass in Big Apple Donuts & Coffee, surfing, facebooking & blogging.

Thanks for messages, comments & calls after the previous post. Blogging & writing are the best medium to express myself.I just felt the age 30 felt like a crossroad, at times you miss your school mates, at times you will miss you college mates and for single like me, on particular time I miss the girls I am involved with. One of my ex MSNed and encouraged me to pursue the girl I mentioned in my previous post once again.

At this point of time, I still feel the time is not right yet. I had better learn to love myself more before I learn to love others.

Happy weekend and I am taking this opportunity to wish one of my favorite girl a very happy birthday & may all your wishes come true. Happy birthday Nikki! Muacks!!!

And just a teaser, I am getting a new tattoo soon! :)

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Emotion Fluctuation

It is suppose to be a happy day for me today. The moment I opened my outlook in the office this morning, saw the letter of award for a project, a multi-million project. It's an achievement but why am I feeling blue?

I apologized to my mates whom I met up with just a little while ago at Jaya One for dinner. I can't hide my feelings, I admit I have a very poor EQ, I am blue. I am not neither sad nor upset but just this weird feeling of blue.

My mood fluctuated. A moment I can be as chirpy as a bird but I can be also really down on another. The moment "she" conquered my mind, I felt that way. It happened just like that. I seem to be in auto-cruise in my own world.

It had been 2 years, 2 months & 17 days. I felt lousy, I felt weak, I felt defeated. Many of times, best buddies around me who see me this way, I made them felt lousy and many of times they try to wake me up by putting knife after knife into my mentality but thus far, no one had really manage to mend the wound I am nursing. Guys, sorry I disappointed you but you are not me, you would not understand the feeling, really. I do appreciate your advices but my ears only chose what I want to hear and eliminate those I do not want to.

(Taking a deep sigh) I felt that I am being haunted, I saw someone that actually look like her, again like I said I am in my own world. Who understands this nonsensical feeling that I am enduring now? Who had been through this? Yes, again & again I hear words like, "Dude, it's not the end of the world!" Yeah, I do know that! That's why I have not even ended my own life foolishly after so long. But it is just that feeling that is haunting me. The wrongdoing of mine, the regrets & the pain. I apologize my dear, really I do.

Let me drown in my own world. Good night & enjoy this beautiful song that best describes me now.

Look at this face
I know the years are showin’
Look at this life
I still don’t know where it’s goin’

I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

Look at these eyes
They never seen what mattered
Look at these dreams
So beaten and so battered, hoo…ooh…

I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

So many questions
Still left unanswered
So much
I’ve never broken through

And when I feel you near me
Sometimes I see so clearly
The only truth I’ve ever known
Is me and you

Look at this man
So blessed with inspiration
Look at this soul
Still searching for salvation

I don't know much
But I know I love you
And that may be
All I need to know

I don't know much
But I know I love you
That may be
All I need to know

I don't know much
But I know I love you
That may be
All there is to know, whoa…oh…oh…oh…ah…

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Earning With Blogging

It felt just like yesterday, this year I am entering my 4th year blogging at this site. I am still an idiot to be frank on some jargons, whatever SEO or search optimization, blah blah blah... Even this decent design of my blog was done by fellow blogger Splashmilk. I just write when I am inspired to regardless how many unique or visitors actually read my blog.

I think (not sure) my readers are mainly comprising of my friends, family members, relatives, people close at my heart, colleagues, my bosses & even my clients. Perhaps this blog is the other side of me which they find interesting. Perhaps so, I am not sure.

I blogged about everything under the sun, politics, love, my trips, food I ate, my relationships, etc. 4 years ago, there was no Nuffnang. But I did played a minor role in my day job shortlisting "big bloggers" to review some of the products that my company carries such as mobile phones. There was a blogger who charged my company as high as RM4000/post but his traffic was high back then. Most of the big bloggers charge averagely about RM2000/post. Good money huh?

I know I shouldn't have share this piece of info but then let this piece of info inspire those who really have passion for blogging to seriously think of this as a profesion. There are not many big bloggers, just handful of them and people who read blogs will definitely bump into their blogs before.

Then come Nuffnang, earnings not much but no complain isn't it? Our main agenda as blogger is still writing quality piece. Best thing about Nuffnang is every blogger can register it, whether you are big or small and of cos if you are as big as the coconut, your purse will definitely be thicker than small fry just like me. Though small, thanks to Nuffnang, I do have a few hundreds in my account, no complain. Give it a shot for a start.

And on Google Adsense, this is something I could not be bother to even analyze it. You must be good in some search engine optimization and high page rank which I do not what the hell was that.

And this year, besides maintaining my own journal here, I am looking forward to managing another virgin blog from a MNC and some of its online campaigns. I never expect to be selected but when the call come and in view of the dollar & cent, I grabbed the opportunity. It is still under progress and will share once it's in the execution stage.

So bloggers there, you might not be big but opportunities are everywhere. With the additional portfolio, I hope I can still blog as much as I can here but I assure you people I am gonna bring more love & peace to my readers during this sorry state of recession.

Cheer up! My wedding coming soon....

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Help Me Choose My Wedding Ring

Thousand apologies for my MIA for the past one week or so. I had been busy with...
  1. My work: I had just secured a really huge project. Really huge for the time of recession, I am talking about RM10 million sales so a super close follow up needed and it occupies most of my time now.
  2. My online activities: I will also soon be writing & moderating a blog site soon, will announce when it commences.
  3. My iPod Touch: Just been recently adding this to my big boy toys list, been using up my free time after work to do housekeeping on the MP3s, photos & applications in this gadget
  4. Last but not least - MY WEDDING
A short post though, with so little time to spare, I need assistance from the readers of my blog to help me choose my wedding ring. So here it goes...

a) Tiffany & Co.

b) Bvlgari

c) Piaget

and finally

d) Cartier

All also so nice, which one to choose ar?

Friday, February 06, 2009

I Am Getting Married

I had been missing from blogging action for the whole week thanks to

Lou Sang and

Lou Sang and

Lou Sang & Yam Sengggggggggggggg....

OK, back to the topic above. Now I know arranging a marriage is not an easy task until you really experience it. I will arrange mine in a very simple way and perhaps can share some tips with those of you who plan to get marry soon.

First, the ring or wedding band. As the trend nowadays is towards platinum with diamond, I would advice to purchase both material separately. Meaning to say, firstly, get the platinum ring and then followed by the diamond, then send both material to the shop to make one, the cost will be cheaper 20%-30% from the market.

After the ring, then come the wedding pictures or wedding album. Many of times I heard from my friends who got married on the cost of this ranging from RM2k to RM8k. I will arrange mine in Taiwan though for a cost of less than RM4k excluding the air tickets & ground arrangement. Perhaps to some it is not worthwhile but to me it is a holiday-cum-photo shooting, plus I had always been wanting to visit Taiwan so it will be considered like a pre-honeymoon with a total cost of less than RM10k.

And on the dinner reception, food to me is secondary. Primarily, the overall environment will be the most important. I realized that most Chinese wedding dinner starts at 7PM and by the time all guests reach, the dinner will start around 9PM. So to minimize the late comers, I will arrange mine at 6PM, guests will be served with cocktail and a mini garden party. Dinner will commence at around 8PM. It's a ballroom dinner so I will set a certain dress code. I will also invite Vanessa Tan, local jazz singer to perform that night. So those who giving ang pow, study the market rate ya :)

Phew... I had arranged so much but now I am missing something....











Where's my bride???