Untukmu

This song rather brought a lot of memories. Kian Leong, if you are reading this, I remember we sang this song together during our secondary school days, Form 3 or 4 if I am not mistaken.

And all of sudden, someone I chatted on MSN today triggered me to listen to KRU's songs again. And this particular song's lyrics matched the message that I want to convey to a person far far away.

Enjoy the song...

Chinese Guy Loves Boobies

Some may feel offended by him, some call him racist but like it or not... he made his money with his videos and made millions laugh with his offensive videos.

With his cool sunglasses and crazy Chinese accent, I find Peter Chao is more hilarious than offensive--and that's why he's taken the YouTube vlogosphere by storm. Find out why he's featured in today's Who's Who on YouTube.

Video Games - E3 2009 - Attack of the Show

I particularly like his "Chinese Guy Loves Boobies", it's very frank and yes which guy doesn't like boobies? Enjoy the video & chao outside mothaf**ker!

Diamond Voice

I am about to share videos of inarguable the best male voice of the world. I particularly like this song.

Present to you "Dedication" by Vitas, each and every time I listen to it, it felt different all the time. There will be time that you will lay tears after hearing this song, there was also time you felt like you are on cloud nine or missing someone or thinking about my mom. I got no idea under what genre should I categorize this masterpiece.

Enjoy the video! Pay attention on the 2.40 of the first video and tell me if you are not impress.





And I forgot to tell you guys, this is also hell of a good song to 捉-KICK (catch kick) if you are high.

Marvelous! Bravo! Come to think about it, Vitas can actually speak to dolphin.

I Know...

Since there is someone who is asking me the meaning of the song, so here you go and being someone who does not know how to read Chinese characters, correction is very much appreciated, so here is what I think is the meaning of the song. Enjoy!



从来没想过　不能再和你牵手
Never thought that I would not be able to hold your hand

委屈时候　没有你　陪着我心痛
During troubled times, you were not there to company me enduring my heartache

一切都是我太过骄纵　以为你会懂
It was because I was too arrogant, assuming that you would understand

一直忘了说　我有多感动
Kept forgetting to tell you how much I was moved


Chorus: 我知道你还是爱着我
I know you still love me

虽然分开的理由　我们都已接受
Despite the fact that both of us are accepting the reason of our separation

你知道我会有多难过
You knew that I would have been devastated

所以即使到最后　还微笑着要我加油
So that's why you kept on smiling and encouraged me to keep on fighting

我知道你还放不下我
I know you still cannot let me go

才会在离开时　闭着眼没有回头
That's why when you left, you closed your eyes & never look back

我们都知道彼此心中
We both know that deep inside

其实　这份爱没停过
Actually that this love has never stop

(Repeat All)

Bridge: 曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
The happiness we had still very much embedded on my mind

我多希望你还在我左右
How I wish you were still by my side

(Repeat Chorus)

:)

사랑해요 Means I Love You

I was in dire need of inspiration. Every time now and then when I log in the blogger site, the moment I want to put my thoughts in writing, I paused and both my hands just went numb. Anyway, while on my way to work today listening to OneFM, this song inspired me to write up this post.

Of late, I had just signed up a Korean language classes and I had been practicing it with my colleagues and friends. 사랑해요, romanized as "sarangheyo" means I love you.

And OneFM had been one of my favorite radio station ever since introduced by a friend. This morning the morning kakis were discussing about the topic, "what if you bump into someone you like with another guy/gal?" Pretty interesting innit? For me (I thought to myself), it will definitely feel akward and weird, definitely. But akwardness apart, I will bless her and wish her all the best. Ok, father's day is around the corner, love is not only all about a guy & a gal, it is a good time now for us to say "sarangheyo" to our beloved daddy ;)

Enjoy the translated lyrics & song below ya. My Monday is not that blue anyway :)

Standing alone on the stage,
My shadow is casted by the spotlight,
Our common grief is represented by music,
It's not that everytime I sing,
It will make me forget that you won't be with me tomorrow.

In my heart, we'll never be apart.

The fragrance that you left behind in my hands reminded me,
The promises left behind in the digital camera,
Every message that is being sent is telling you...

사랑해요 means I love you,
It represents that I can't leave you,
Every minute, every second & every sound,
I can only smile when I think of your antics

사랑해요, these words only just for you ;)

Who is Your Best Wonder?

I was enlightened by this Korean song from my mate. Being in a Korean company myself for a bit, I got to agree that the Koreans are making their stamp on every industry, be it in the electronics or even entertainment.



I wanna share this catchy tune, Nobody by the Wonder Girls. While drafting this post, the lyric of the song keeps on lingering on my mind and made me thinking of someone (someone that I am fond of, quite recently). Anyway this post is not venturing into this today, what I really want to share is this special song and how it had taken the world by storm.

1. The original MV by Wonder Girls



2. Wonder Boys

LMAO... These Thai boys really got talent, aren't they?


3. Wonder Yankee

Mat Salleh also know the moves OK!


4. Wonder Ukulele

I think this version is pretty interesting.


5. Wonder Teens

I think the one on the left, her moves are better.


6. Wonder Wannabe

WTF???


7. Wonder Lover

Trisha might like it but certainly not me.


8. Wonder Rockers

This version is cool, it reminded me of the Korean guy who did the Canon rock version.


9. Wonder Vocal

Her voice is good and I got to agree her Korean is good!


So who's your best wonder???

Tears

When was the last time you laid your tears? Under what circumstances?

It had been a while since I had tears until I saw this quite old video. Odd for a guy huh? Love is funny indeed but it's beautiful.



Love is great right?

In Love

When one in love, one tend to do anything & everything, even it's the silliest thing ever. Love this song when I bumped into it last night while youtubing.



When will I found the feeling of love again? Soon? Hmm...

Happy weekend to all. If you are out of idea where to go this weekend, check this link out!

Oh, Very Nice

What happen when two girls fall for you? Let's walk down to memory, this is extremely hilarious :)

Good song for a beautiful Sunday.

singalongsong

Let me be as it is complicated, enjoy the song and most importantly the lyrics :)



singalongsong - khalil fong

i wrote this song
it's not too long
cos i'd been thinking bout u

i wrote this song
maybe i'm wrong
to be caught up bout you

well i don't know what you think bout me
maybe you think nothing at all

BUT maybe you could just lie to me
and we could be in love, you see

oh, it's a singalong song that's not too long
it's when i think about you that i hear songs
and you can singalong maybe if you want to
cos baby i wrote this, i wrote this for you

i wrote this song
it's not too long
cos i'm the one who loves you

i wrote this song
this can't be wrong
i don't wanna smile without you

well i just want to make you happy
BUT maybe you want nothing at all

and how i wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me

oh, it's a singalong song that's not too long
it's when i think about you that i hear songs
and you can singalong maybe if you want to
cos baby i wrote this, i wrote this for you

in every way you mean more to me than you'll ever know
girl i'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
i'd find the greatest words to sing
so we could write our own romance

oh, it's a singalong song that's not too long
it's when i think about you that i hear songs
and you can singalong maybe if you want to
cos baby i wrote this, i wrote this for you

Love Song

Another hard battling day for me. From work to personal matters, I do hope I did managed it well though. Hmm... perhaps I would give myself 60% marks today on the way my EQ works. I did felt a bit jumpy at work but it all ended well.

Of late, I had been learning this new Chinese song, to add to my favorite karaoke titles when I go to Redbox or Neway. I am a non-Chinese educated and learning the song by hard way like many others I believe. And I had been googling for this song for quite a while and I am not able to find the romanized lyric. So here I am to share with readers who are in the same shoes as mine. Enjoy!

Love Song - Khalil Fong 方大同

wo xie le zhe shou ge
shi yi shou jian dan de　bu fu za ye bu nan chang de na yi zhong ge
zhe bu shi na zhong　zhi sheng xia na gang qin de ge
ye bu shi na zhong　bu neng zhi shi peng you de ge
zhe bu shi na zhong　liang ge ren de gu shi xie zai yi ben xiao shuo
na xiao shuo li you shei hui zai hua tian li fan le cuo
zhe jiu shi yi shou xie gei ni ting de yi ge

Love Song　yi zhi xiang xie yi shou
Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
Love Song　na DJ hui bo fang
zhe ye xue hui shang bang
bu guo wo zhi xiang xie chu yi shou
Love Song　yi zhi xiang xie yi shou
Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
ni jiu xiang na xia tian de liang feng
chui guo wo de mian kong　qing xiang fei
zai wo xin di　ni jiu shi wo di yi (yeah) xiang shuo ai ni

wo xie le zhe shou ge
shi yi shou jian dan ge　bu fu za ye bu nan chang de na yi zhong ge
zhe bu shi na zhong　tong hua li hui yu jian de ge
ye bu shi na zhong　zhen zhen qie qie ai wo de ge
zhe bu shi na zhong　liang ge ren de gu shi xie zai yi ben xiao shuo
na xiao shuo li you shei pei ta kan liu xing zai jiang luo
zhe jiu shi yi shou xie gei ni ting de yi ge

Love Song　yi zhi xiang xie yi shou
Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
Love Song　na DJ hui bo fang
zhe ye xue hui shang bang
bu guo wo zhi xiang xie chu yi shou
Love Song　yi zhi xiang xie yi shou
Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
ni jiu xiang na xia tian de liang feng
chui guo wo de mian kong　qing xiang fei
zai wo xin di　ni jiu shi wo di yi　xiang shuo ai ni

ru guo ni shi yi fu hua
ni hui shi zui zhen gui de yi fu hua
ru guo na hua jia shi fan gao de hua
you he gui ren qian lai you qian hua　ge ge xiang ni qiu jia
fan gao ta shuo　ni men dou gai hui jia

you huo zhe ni shi Melody jiu shi zui dong ting
suo you de ren du hui gen a ni qi chang
jiu suan zai ye wan　ni de xing tai liang
rang wo wang le yue liang dai biao wo de (love....)

Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
Love Song　naDJ hui bo fang
zhe ye xue hui shang bang
bu guo wo zhi xiang xie chu yi shou
Love Song　yi zhi xiang xie yi shou
Love Song　ni gei le wo yi shou
ni jiu xiang na xia tian de liang feng
chui guo wo de　qing xiang fei
zai wo xin di　ni jiu shi wo di yi

Lovely isn't it?

Rain

It's been raining quite often lately. It seems that there is an automatic switch around the evening time and there will be quite heavy downpour. I cannot explain, I have this weird feeling that the coming days will not be as great as I want it to be. I am very concern about the economic condition here.

While the company I worked for had been achieving its target for the past 2 months, somehow rather I am not overjoyed with this achievement. I should be happy innit? But why I am not?

When will I see a brighter day again?

Clay The Gay

He perhaps had broken hearts of girls out there. Great vocal, great looks, Idol star, announced to the world that he is gay. And had recently became father to a baby boy, Parker Foster Aiken, a child he had together (invitro) with his executive producer, Jaymes Foster, sister of the famous producer David Foster.



I was at the Hennessy Artistry last night at the Orange Club. Great performances. Shall blog about it once I get hold of the pictures. Hope Shayne Ward will not surprise us like Clay Aiken did.

Now back to Clay Aiken, although he is gay, he has great songs unlike Lindsay Lohan who also recently announced her homosexuality. Now for a beautiful Sunday, enjoy the song from Clay Aiken here.

Clay Aiken - On My Way Here



I took my first step
On that black and white kitchen floor
I sometimes wonder if that house
Is even there, anymore
I had my first glimpse of love
When I was five I watched two people split apart
But still the three of us survived

I've seen the best
I've seen the worst
I wouldn't change what I've been through
I've touched the sky
I've hit the wall
But I did what I had to
Ooooohhhh

On my way here
Where I am now
I've learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I've fallen hard
But I've been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here.

My address has changed
Almost every year
I've found that standing still
Can quickly make a lifetime disappear
I'd rather try and fail
A thousand times denied
And this, whenever you feel pain
It lets you know that you're alive

I've been a fool
I've been afraid Yeah,
I've been loved I've been lied to
I've been wrong
And I've been right
I stood up when I had to Yeah

On my way here
Where I am now
I've learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I've fallen hard
But I've been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here.

No guarantees
I believed that I would find
An open door or a light
To lead me to the other side
I guess that is why

On my way here
Where I am now
I've learned to fly
I have to want to leave the ground
I've fallen hard
But I've been loved
And in the end it all works out
My faith has conquered fear
On my way here Yeahhhh Oooooohh

Milestone

I achieved the 500 posts since I started blogging more than 3 years ago. This blog had been a part of my life. When I was younger, I did not believe in journal or diary writing. I discovered blogging from a few buddies with the intention to update what's happening and what's not in my life for my friends' reading pleasure. It was like 2-3 posts a month back then.

I became active after my breakup back in 2006. The need to adapt to my new life then strengthen my bonding with this blog. Writing what's in me, my feelings, it did help me on my road to recovery. And at the same time, kind words from readers and consolation from them kept me going. Thanks.

Remaining single till now, at times when I am lonely and empty, my blog had been the greatest companion. When I am free, I never fail to update this blog. No matter how busy I am, I tried to slot 30 minutes or so a day to write here. Only when physically I am exhausted from my day commitments, then I will call it another day.

Quite a busy Saturday for me today. I will be attending two events/functions today. To those who will be in Mid Valley today, I will be there at 4PM giving out prizes for the My Life, My Way video blogging contest. Then later at night, I will be attending the Hennessy Artistry at Orange Club special invitation for sponsors. So if you guys/gals are pimping these events, do say hello ya.

Till then, happy weekend to all and enjoy this beautifully written song I put up for all.

Two Less Lonely People In The World - Air Supply



I was down, my dreams were wearin thin
When you're lost, where do you begin?
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way.

Then you smiled, and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look and it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched, I knew that there would be...

(Chorus)
Two less lonely people in the world
And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can't believe you're mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Somethin finally went right
Now there's two less lonely people in the world tonight

Just to think of what I might have missed
Looking back, how did I exist?
I dreamed, still I never thought I'd come this far
But miracles come true. I know cuz here we are.

CHORUS

Tonight I fell in love with you
And all the things I never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby love is here and now there's...

Two less lonely people in the world
And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can't believe you're mine
In my live where everything was wrong
Somethin finally went right
Now there's two less lonely people
Two less lonely people
Two less lonely people in the world tonight

Saving All My Love For You - Friday Randomness

It's Friday. Phew... Thank God it's Friday.

I have not been writing about politics lately. I am tired about it. Politician being politician, perhaps that is their nature to over-promised and under-delivering, be it the BN or the Opposition. The whole saga is simply a joke. And we have innocents being detained & locked up under the ISA. To politics, fuck it for the time being. Got change, then change lar. I am a bit numb with all this at the moment.

I will out of the country next week holidaying with my family in Thailand. There is not much to do in the office as everyone is in the mood for the Raya break and heavy vehicles will be prohibited from the highway starting today. Those who will be on the road, safe journey to your destination ya.

For a happy rainy Friday, I am in the mood of this song now, perhaps I am saving my love for someone. Enjoy!

Saving All My Love For You - Whitney Houston



A few stolen moments is all that we share
You've got your family and they need you there
Though I've tried to resist being last on your list
But no other man's gonna do
So I've saving all my love for you

It's not very easy living all alone
My friends try and tell me find a man of my own
But each time I try I just break down and cry
'Cause I'd rather be home feeling blue
So I've saving all my love for you

You used to tell me we'd run away together
Love gives you the right to be free
You said be patient just wait a little longer
But that's just an old fantasy

I've got to get ready just a few minutes more
Gonna get that old feeling when you walk through that door
'Cause tonight is the night for I feeling all right
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love for you
Yes I'm saving all my love
Yes I'm saving all my love for you

No other woman is gonna love you more
'Cause tonight is the night that I feeling all right
We'll be making love the whole night through
So I'm saving all my love for you
Yeah 'm saving all my lovin'
Yes I'm saving all my love for you , for you


Oh ya, it's Friday - meaning it's party night. I will be at Plaza TTDI tonight, am not sure which joint I will end up. Wabisabi is cosy & nice, Waikiki got cool liveband and Bamboo is filled with chicks... hmm... buzz me if you are there. Cheers!

Motivation

Since my last real breakup, I had been neglecting myself a lot. Perhaps I am working hard to achieve what I want in my career, trying hard to earn more and more that I neglected a lot of other things. I realized today or should I say she made me realize it today what I am really missing in life.

Just a few years ago, when I was in my relationship, my life seems complete and I am having a quality life back then. In between my busy schedule, I still manage to squeeze some time for gym. But now, it is not that I do not enjoy my singlehood but I am leading a different lifestyle now, working hard, socializing, drinking, networking almost every night and had not been having good rest.

From now on, I will go on a strict diet and be more discipline to do exercise. At least I found the motivation already. I will not let her down. Don't be wrong, I am not into a relationship or whatsoever but words she said today triggered me to improve myself better.

Good things to come or not? This song really suit my feeling now, listen and understand the lyrics. Enjoy!

I Wanna Know - Joe



It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know

[1] - I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile

Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know

[Repeat 1]

[2] - Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true

[Repeat 2]

I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know

Total Eclipse of My Heart

Back from my peaceful getaway from bustling city of KL. I had been going back Malacca quite often lately. I am enjoying my time more and more these days being surrounded with my family, perhaps over here in KL I am leading a pretty lonely & quiet days. Please do not get me wrong, I do have many friends in KL but a few whom I really can rely on, but at times I am thinking that I cannot be bugging them all the time as they do have their own family, loved ones to spend time with. Ignore me here, I am just voicing myself randomly.

Oh ya, I did mentioned that something big going to happen few postings ago. My younger brother is getting married soon. It is a first time experience to all in the family. I am a total dummy on this and felt sorry that I cannot help much here. I envy my brother in a way, at the age of 26, he will be having his own family soon and indirectly he overachieved me in this aspect.

Mom & dad are both happy but at the same time too worried about me, worried that I will end up alone like few of my cousins. Mom on & off will think of my ex and the very recent trip, she did mentioned about her. She is somehow someone who had embedded such a deep impression to my family. Brushing the ugly parts aside, I had a great 3 years with her. Good times more than the bad ones. And when early this year I decided to move on and I thought I had found someone, that someone does not turn out to be that one. At the early courtship with this new girl, I was not accepted because I was said to be missing my ex, which I confidently denied. And when it was time that I am ready to commit my all, I was told that her feeling was not as deep as mine. Afraid, refrain, I do not dare to walk on. Girls I got involved with in the past kept on telling me that how good of a quality of a man I am but that does not sound convincing enough for me. I felt vulnerable towards relationships now. I opted to focus my life on dollars & cents, focus on my buddies both business & drinking buddies and ignoring totally my personal life.

No worries, perhaps all this happy stuff happening in my family has in a way or two affected my mood but people around me, knowing that I am a positive man, I will look forward. It is like a period thingy, it comes & go. Congratulations to my younger brother, you are officially an adult and my best wishes to you.

For this moment, I am in the mood into this old skool 1980 hit song by Bonnie Tyler, Total Eclipse of The Heart. Enjoy!



Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by

Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes

Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart
Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

จำตัวเองได้ไหม Jum Tua Eng Dai Mai

Rejuvenated. Slept early last night about 10PM. Woke up 9AM today, had breakfast with mom and send her to her shop. It's a day I would take a time off from politics a bit. Wanna share one nice song with you peeps today.

Not english, not chinese but Thai. I had this liking to Thai songs. Just enjoyed listening to their every lines that most of the times will end up with mai, hai, nai, lai, wai and so on. I added the video together with pinyin for Thai dummy like me (thanks to Albert). Enjoy the song & sing along.

James Reungsak - Jum Tua Eng Dai Mai ( จำตัวเองได้ไหม)



For better audio version, play it here below



Anyone willing to give the meaning translation?

Happy weekend!!!

916, 917, 918....... What's Going On?

I am dead tired. I almost miss my flight to Sabah yesterday, thanks for the kind people in MAS. Now this is the difference between MAS (MH) & Air Asia (AK). 30 minutes before you still allowed to check in while AK will ask you to go and fly kite.

So, the Malaysia Day is over. It does not happen which means RPK and Teresa Kok will still be detained under ISA. And this also means Dollah Badawi still is the PM. I was in Sabah yesterday, yesterday is also a public holiday in Sabah in conjunction of the Governor's birthday. I had a project meeting with a prominent developer with various developments in Sabah and over tea session we had a chat about Malaysian politics. He too agreed that we Malaysia needs a change, other Sabahan who I met during the session also voiced out the same.

I came back last time, touched down KLIA at about 10pm. A few buddies called to go for a drink and I went. "So it's Sept 16 now, what happen?" a friend asked. With a tired voice, I told them to be patient, few more days to come, we shall see.

So back to reality now, it's past 916. Everyone wants to see 916 after so many shits happen in this country. Much before the Permatang Pauh by-election and all these ridiculous ISA arrestments, nobody will talk bout the 916. And after Anwar successfully convinced the people about 916, majority of people in this country want to see a wind of change, some desperately like me. But what's going on? I feel like singing this song now...



Off to bed now... hopefully when I wake up later and open up Malaysiakini, there will be further good news...

ps: A fellow blogger friend quits blogging. I hope she will change her mind.

The Man Became Alive Again

Today marked the 3rd birthday of MikeMmery. This site had been faithfully listening to me for the past 3 years. It must be tiring for the her listening to my ups & downs, my joy & sadness and of late been the space that I ranted out my political views in the country.

When I started blogging, there were only 2 incidents when I was forced to remove a particular post. First it was last year when I rant & question about a colleague's capabilities & contributions to the company. I was given a show cause letter by my company and was asked to remove the post immediately. It is not a nice feeling to write what's in your heart and forced to remove it then. Anyway, I now understand that not everyone can tolerate constructive criticisms.

The second incident was about 2 days ago. Many who have been following my blog would assume that I am seeing somebody after my last relationship. I had been discreetly sharing my happiness through here but not as in depth. 2 days ago, it was this anniversary that I felt had a significant impact on my life, I blogged about my happiness only to be asked to remove the post hours later. It was again not a nice feeling that I have to endure for the past 2 days thinking of what I had done wrong. It is not as if I am having a secret affair with some married women or so. The past 2 days been terrible for me. I was given the ultimatum to keep it as low profile as possible which I think I did a good job. Statements after statements from her, it does not sound logical and very inconsistent, I just felt that she is not as ready as I am.

Today, the birthday of MikeMmery, the man himself became alive again. I am very much a single, I felt that I did tried my very best to please my girl and when she asked for a split, I thought, it is not easy for me to make that call and if the girl can make such call without processing it with the sane mind, then I believe the journey should end. Through this one month journey with her, I had walked so far ahead of her where she is finding hard to keep up with my pace, then perhaps I will wait at the next nearest oasis to wait for her to catch up with me.

Today, also all men on earth become alive. EPL is back. I am going to jazz bar tonight with someone. Hmm... whether I am sad or not... hmm... not as in drop dead sad but I start to lose a bit of fate in love, a little tired and it's about time to focus what I am good at. I am hitting the crossroad of 30 this year, of course seeing couples, seeing my friends got married and having kids, I do felt something. I want to have such ending as well but God has not send someone that has the same kind of chemistry as I am.

Happy Birthday MikeMmery. Fellow readers, play the video below, sing along the song for my blog k. Love you all!



ps: brother coldcube, I tried hard, I failed.